Behind on the blog posts once again. Oh Elizabeth. . .
So, my organizing/purging project for my study (that I “started” after graduation) is ongoing. I was going to blog about my progress when I thought, “Lord, that is boring, who would care?” Which touched off a particularly difficult line of thought. I have this blog that I could be doing so much more with but don’t. Mostly because I’m anxious about who may be reading or how much I want to share. I mean, seriously, the internet is a wonderfully wide anonymous world but I know (& now you do too) that my mother reads this blog. & call me old-fashioned & sheltered, but I was raised to acknowledge the idea that if I was doing something I wouldn’t want my mother to know, then the whole world shouldn’t be looking on either.
Or at least not where she can catch me. 🙂
Of course, a blog is the perfect forum for getting your own writing out there. I’ve done that to an extent: posting my reviews, these posts, etc. But one thing I’ve never had the courage to do is put my rough ideas & creative writing out there, unlike my friend Rax. I’m something of a control freak (if you haven’t already noticed) & the idea of my naked mistakes out there for everyone to see does not appeal to me. You have no idea how many times I go over my posts before I put them up & to even find one repeated word or redundant sentence makes me blush for the rest of the day. Case in point: the 6 Short Films post. The mistake is so obvious, I can’t bring myself to fix it or take it down for fear of someone calling me out.
But, on the other hand, if I am going to blog at least once a week, I might as well be productive. I haven’t been able to make myself consistently sit & develop a piece even since leaving the structure of a classroom. Writing is work & since I get enough labor at my job, it’s not something I rush to do when I get home, even if I do love it. So, maybe I’ll start out with just scraps, writing exercises or scribbles until I can get myself on track. With that said, a scrap inspired by Songs For the Butcher’s Daughter & Tiina Nunnally, among other things.